Jesus was aware of this seeming conflict of our humanness and our Divinity. He was both the Son of God and the Son of Man and so are we. How do we reconcile this innate conflicting nature? Aye, that is the question?
Perhaps there is no simple answer to living in this world, but realizing that we are not of it. I have discovered that the key to creating heaven in the moment is "choice". Heaven awaits our recognition because it is NOW, waiting for our discovery of it. All too often we get so distracted by the perils of life that we forget to claim the good that is.
Recently, I came back from the Minister's Conference where a merging of the head and heart was unfolding. Changes were occurring with a minimum of resistance as if all within our organization were ready for a shift. The era of holding to thought patterns of another generation had come to a close. We were being transformed by the RENEWING of our minds. How sweet it was to embrace the coming emerging life.
On my return to Huntsville I was bounced around by the airlines in such a way that I found myself no longer in that blissful state of the Higher Self, but had slipped into the pits of my whiny, reactionary, grumpy, critical little self. I found myself calling out to the universe "Why hast thou forsaken me?" Dad's voice was whispering in my ear, "It's just Murphy's Law", but even that didn't seem to make things better.
After hours of mucking around in my pitty party, something in me had had ENOUGH. I got down on the floor and started to breathe consciously. "I breathed in peace and breathed out calm; I breathed in perfect moment and exhaled wonderful moment." I chanted these phrases till I felt mind in me beginning to calm. It didn't happen immediately, but gradually I found my heart was no longer racing and I had rediscovered that forgotten land called PEACE OF MIND.
God had not forsaken me, I had forsaken IT. The little time-bound self was dissolving into a poof of eternal peace and all I had to do was say YES. Ultimately, I got through that event that took me to my own personal hell. It taught me to SEEK the Kingdom of Heaven again. I wonder when I will really get this thing. We all have a choice. In any unfolding moment we get to decide. Heaven and hell are states of mind that await and we get to step into one or the other. Today, I give myself to heaven and I let myself melt into that Eternal Pool of Love, Joy and Peace.
When I give myself to those qualities of the Divine, I am no longer trapped in the quicksand of my perceived struggles. Thank God for Spirit in us that takes us back to that sacred moment and asks us to Breathe.

Namasté

David